posted on September 22, 2002 @ 4:32 pm
"i won't ever be happy again," bright eyes
jonathan just broke up with me because his family is moving to indiana afterall, and he doesn't want to move to austin. then he started talking about something he bought me like what he had just said was nothing.
he's turned me into everything i've never wanted to be, and now he's leaving me to be lonely and wanting love again.
happy birthday, chelsea.
what makes me feel stupid is if our positions were switched, and he was crying and asking me to move to austin, i would.
fuck him.
fuck everyone.
i'm going to drink my vodka.
"well morning came and it dressed the sky in a lovely yellow gown. now the shops they are all opening in that narrow hallway of downtown filled with people who are shopping for their lovers and their friends saying they won't ever be longly again. well a forest fenced becomes backyards like songs born from sound. and the apple fell and it taught us all we are chained here to the ground. so, i mean, here we go, but there ain't no escape. no, these streets they're just dead ends. so i won't ever be happy again. well, it seems you too see a painful blue when you stare into the sky. you'd never understand the motion of a hand waving you goodbye. "bye bye." but as the story goes or it is often told a new day will arise, and all the dance halls will be full of skeletons that are coming back to life. and on a grassy hill the lion will lay down with lamb, and i won't ever be lonely again. no, no, no, no, no. but until that time i think i had better find some disbelief to suspend cause i don't want to feel like this again."
anti-<3, pyx.
p.s. i didn't mean the fuck him part. i meant quite the opposite in fact.
so i'd like to make some changes before you arrive, so when your new eyes meet mine they won't see no lies. just love. just love.
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