posted on Sunday, Jul. 10, 2005 @ 12:35
the only time i've had real friends were in longview, yet it's a part of my life i really want to forget. then, as i sat at home on the weekends watching owen play [zelda/katamari/etc.] just like every other day, i ignored those very longview people who want to hang out with me. it makes me come across as unappreciative when i feel bad for only having owen as a friend, but surely it can also be seen as understandable.
all the people i work with, they shit themselves calling people and yelling for them to come over to party. they do stupid things when they're drunk like leave voicemails and myspace messages. i've only ever gotten a few drunken voicemails. the message i got the other night was because i was standing by dana as she was writing to other people. the only reason i knew to show up on friday night was because cole and dana were working at my garage that day.
the last time i got a phone call from someone just to talk, other than from mom, nana, or owen, was in high school. that's over four years.
in addition to much better weather, that's a big reason i want to move to washington. it's just like moving to austin. everyone i once knew and loved changed, and the ones who came to austin with me...it was just different. i changed.
the only real friends i had here were layla and jennifer. jennifer turned into a drunken psycho, and layla's moving to california. no matter where i am, i'm just a big failure, which is why i could never possibly express how thankful i am for owen. he's just as big of a social outcast as myself, if not worse.
this is a pretty abrupt stop, but there's really nothing else to say. hopefully i'll be able to move on eventually and ignore some people here for a change, rather than the other way around.