posted on February 13, 2003 @ 12:57 pm
"hold me now," "if you were here," thompson twins
"relaxin' at club fuckin'," koop
"i melt with you," modern english
"paper thin walls," modest mouse
?i'm totally obsessed with mexican food. chips and queso and salso and cheese enchiladas. i would eat taco bell everyday if i could afford it and if it wouldn't give me a heart attack in two years.
?on my way home from school, "policy of truth" by depeche mode and "mrs. robinson" by the lemonheads came on, and it made my day.
?i love 80s pop.
?i like boys who look like girls, who wear eyeliner and glitter and boas. like someone i know. ;) brian molko is *the* most beautiful man. ever. ever.
?i always have a crush on someone, sometimes a couple of people. i tell myself not to, but i just happen across the coolest people sometimes. it's a curse.
?i'm about to watch willy wonka and the chocolate factory and take a nap.
?i quote midieval literatre.
"This prison caused me nat for to crye,
But I was hurt right now thurghout myn y?lt;br>Into myn herte, that wol my bane be."
this prison caused me not to cry, but i was hurt right now through my eye into my heart, that will be my bane.
?i have my computer's character map on the start menu because i need to access lost characters and write in the phonetic alphabet so often.
?when i get upset or sentimental, i speak in french.
?i watched my big fat greek wedding the past two nights in a row (i'm debating between that and willy wonka; i think willy's going to lose...).
?two boys i love immensely are owen and bryan because they've always been there, even [especially] when i'm fucking psycho.
?i haven't talked to them in a long long time, but i love kate and shannon, too. they collaborated to prevent my suicide.
?my mom is cooler than your mom. my dad is cooler than your dad. on valentine's day several years ago, he bought me marilyn manson's video even though mom said i couldn't have it. doug, not jay. jay's a jerk off who can die. well, be injured.
?i love acid jazz. this koop song, "i want you to get together" by st. germain, the songs on my #3 preset in my car, they all totally rape my soul with their beauty.
?on that note, i love bill and erik. i also love elftor.
?"fuck the pain away" by peaches and "beloved" by vnv nation are very fucking good songs.
?i have a marionette dinosaur i got in the sixth grade and named weinie cause it made me giggle. i also have a marionette lance from n sync.
?i think ben affleck's cute. (don't tell.)
?i need to find out what love's got to do with it.
?i didn't call my nana the past two nights.
?when i was four and my mother told me she and jay were getting divorced, i told her i wish i had a knife so i could stab her in the heart a thousand times.
?my first memory is of my parents fighting.
?i performed ghastly (for my age) lesbian acts with the girl across the street when i was seven.
?the song "torn" made me cry every time i heard it after i lost my virginity.
i thought i saw a man brought to life
he was warm, he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what it was to cry
well you couldn't be that man that i adored
you don't seem to know or seem to care what your heart is for
i don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has fun dry
that's what's going on
nothing's fine, i'm torn
i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel
i'm cold and i'm ashamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn
so i guess the fortune teller's right
i should ahve seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you crawled beneath my veins and now
i don't care, i have no luck
i don't miss is all that much
there's just so many things that i can't touch
...i'm cold and i'm ashamed, bound and broken on the floor
you're a little late, i'm already torn
?i'm a virgo and ocd about things. i'm rediculously meticulate. i edit everything i ever write, including emails, diary entries, and IMs. i fall in love easily. i'll make a good secretary, teacher, or scientist. i'm going to be too stern with my kids (at least i know beforehand so maybe i won't).
?i think this is way the fuck too long.
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