posted on January 27, 2003 @ 6:20 am
"fuck this world," the queers
you've no idea how i freaked when i realized the queers are coming to emo's. and when i realized i can go see the riddlin' kids, home grown, wakefield and all-american rejects. rejoice in the name of punk rock.
i want to put a bullet between the eyes of everyone who says flowers can't hear me when i talk to them and animals don't have souls. that's like telling someone their kid's going to rot away in oblivion when they die. one night when i was still living at home, i went outside - maybe around 2:00 a.m. - and lay down in the grass behind a tree so the street light wouldn't hit me. i stared up at the tree branches far above me when i felt something, just not physically. i turned my head to my right and saw josie, the neighbor's cat whom they didn't take care of (so i did), walking toward me. he (yeah, once i figured that out i just called him joe) walked up to me, gave me a headbut, then went down the length of my body nuzzling me. i started crying and thanking him for being there when no stupid human gave a fuck, and he came back to my face. he stood there staring at me. i pet him, but he didn't even close his eyes. he barely blinked. i thanked him again and, feeling much better, started to return to my living room. he followed me, and when i got to the door sat down, staring. i told him i'd be fine, but he stayed. he meowed. i promised i was much better thanks to him, so he meowed and walked off. whenever i'd visit my beagle when i felt down, all i'd have to do is say, "please don't be crazy now. i just need peaceful company," and she'd lie down next to me with her head on me and give me occasional kisses.
in addition, if you ever tell me my music sucks, i'm going to kill you. not directly, but i'll communicate to the gods that you're very rude. when someone insults my music, it's like me telling a christian that their god's full of shit and anyone who believes in the bible has their head up their ass, and it's very funny that they believe "bad" people are going to burn when they die. i'm sorry you can't understand the importance of music; just keep it to yourself. i just wish that everyone could understand when i say trent reznor was the only thing keeping me alive back then and that they believed it. i wish everyone could feel what i feel when i hear "hurt" and "something i can never have" and "a song to pass the time" by conor. i wish people could headbang to conor like bryan does, or completely jam out to acoustic music like we do. i wish everyone could freak out when they see marilyn manson like leah and i used to. or cry when they hear that really wonderful song in concert, singing along with that really wonderful musician. or totally freak out when josh from the anniversary escorts you to the merch table and hands you $6 worth of buttons and stickers and thanks you for coming out. or spill over kim deal with adrianne pope.
i'm not going to insult anyone's religion or anyone's music. except rap because it's just about fucking and doing drugs. really. but for all of you out there who are more in tune with plants and animals than humans, and all of you who enjoy a good cry whilst listening to your favorite band, power to you. you're beautiful. <3
"me and you will walk around so pointlessly, smashing things, jacked up on way too much caffeine. i'm really going nowhere. i hate this shitty life. fuck the world, i'm hanging out with you tonight."
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