posted on December 09, 2002 @ 11:16 pm
candyass, orgy
all i have to say is that i love candyass by orgy. and i love those boys, too. mmm.
i just read someone's journal, and she killed a frog. it was in her kitchen, she put it under a bowl, paper on bottom, then set it on the table because she didn't feel like openning the door and letting cold in. and it died. that makes me endlessly sad right now. maybe i should invest in my anti-depressants. =/
i'm going to layla's and drinking when i get off work. again. i'm starting to realize why people do it so often. (it's a change from being so sad all the time.) oh yeah, and apparently quitting smoking is harder than i predicted. at least i only had one today. so far. :sigh: i'm so lame. people with addictions are so lame. it figures, though, that something else would come along to further narrow my window of people to like me. it's just like saving one's virginity; there's been this new wave of anti-smoking.
save your virginity.
don't smoke.
don't do drugs.
believe in jesus.
be a puritan.
oh, to be a puritan...
if i could paint, or draw, i'd show you what i'm picturing in my head. how i feel right now. but i can't so you'll just have to know that i'd be alone and everything would be black or almost black, and windy, and it'd be beautiful. but oh so sad.
i wish i could report that it's getting better, but unfortunately it isn't. it's hard, too, because we've started school again, and i can't go to the places where i used to go. and it can't be like it was. and i wasn't ready to say good-bye just yet. to tell you the truth, i've been avoiding everything.
<3, chelsea.
"now you've made a mess of yourself. you've made a mess of everything. you're a mess. a fucking mess."
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