posted on November 04, 2002 @ 3:21 am
ella fitzgerald
"enjoy the silence," depeche mode
"kinda i want to," nin
"adam's song," blink 182
i'm so upset. bright eyes is in the recent issue of rolling stone. i was in mad love with fevers and mirrors two and a half years ago, and now the world knows. i feel so raped. :(
listening to ella reminds me of sarah renfro, listening to her sing to her and billie holiday when she'd take me home, and that time she sang with the jazz band at band camp. she can sing so well. i wonder how she's doing. i remember one time during band, she was looking at her fingernails and commented, "look! i painted my hang nail." for some reason i just couldn't stop laughing. she even told me a secret. jennifer said that i'm a social moth, just a lesser degree of a butterfly. the other night in kerbey lane paula cole was playing, and i asked if she had known amanda horne. finally she remembered, and we were talking about her cool shoes and how weird she was in a neat way. i said she had been going out with a guy in dallas, and that he was pretty cute and super tall.
that's when jennifer said i was a social moth because i seem to know something random about everyone, something they've told me at some point that just an ordinary person who just happened to be in their class wouldn't know, you know? i always seemed to have in depth conversations with the strangest people, like bryan moody or the ghetto people in my "gourmet foods" (hehe) class. i suppose that's pretty much true. i've always been fascinated with the people who would talk to me in high school. erin at work said that it was since i was the weird quiet girl in the back of the room, and once they learned i wouldn't bite they knew i'd listen. maybe because since i've got issues i'll know what to do. people always asked me what to do, and as long as it didn't concern me that was fine. and then there was that time that marc asked, "why are you so understanding? you make me feel not crazy." heh, last night he told me i was the coolest girl he knew, that many others competed and came close, but in the end i was the one. he was kinda drunk, though. ;)
speaking of last night... layla and i went to shab's so robin (her roommate) could get us a bottle of vodka. their friend nathalie came over, and we ended up smoking. then robin got our vodka, and we came to my house to get jennifer. we went to the nightmare factory. jennifer was totally freaking, and it was very funny. after that, we brought jenn home. we went back to shab's to get her, but then she said she just wanted to go to bed. we went to the garage to see what jeff was doing after work, but he got the night off. we went to aaron's, but layla got really bored and left. i went back and got considerably drunk, falling asleep with arty and marc watching lord of the rings around 6:30 a.m. i woke up at 9:00 a.m. and had to leave because i felt very sick. it went away in a few minutes, but i could so tell one more shot would have done it; i was very thankful. that was the last time i'm going to see arty for a very long time (navy).
holy geez, in jenn's ella fitzgerald case, there's a picture of her signed, "pour ella fitzgerald, son ami picasso/le 28.5.70." that's rad.
today i just slept til 1:30, when i took jenn to work. i slept more, till 3:45, then went to work. it was moderately slow for PG3 (i only made $331), but not so slow i wanted to kill myself (like at PG7, where i make $0). since we have this new rotation schedule, that means for the next two months i'm no a floater!
i really adore the song "beetles" by aphex twin. just to let you know. oh man, when i was driving home from work, "blue monday" by new order was playing on 101x. i so jammed to that, and when it was over i found "personal jesus" by depeche mode on 107.7! eee! ahh, i just started my launch radio station, and "enjoy the silence" is playing. :melts: well, i'm going to go play noah's ark. i'm totally obsessed with that game. or maybe i'll read. i don't know, but for having such little sleep i'm so awake. oh yeah, i need to translate middle english. hmm. hmm indeed.
rebecca romjin is on the cover of maxim. derek and i are excited. :giggle: oh wait, i mean, i don't care... :giggles moreso: he IMed me tonight, and i was like, "did you see maxim?!"
"YES! STAMOS! i will never call her stamos. never!"
jonathan IMed me and apologized for being an ass. he sad that if i don't want to come in this weekend i don't have to because he figures i probably don't. and he said he'll be working a lot. whateva.
"all of my excuses turn to lies. well maybe god will cover up his eyes. i know it's not the right thing, and i know it's not the good thing. kinda i want to."
<3, goddess pyx*.
*in owen's world i'm a goddess, so ;P on you cause you're not! hehe.
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