posted on August 01, 2002 @ 2:38 am
jay leno & conan o'brien
today was so...i don't even know. i finally got my tuition paid, so that's out of the way. then i helped mom finish cleaning out her cabinets a little, washing some stuff that she's going to give me (canister sets, pots, skillets, etc.). i called my leasing agent, and he said we have to sign the lease a day before we move in. that put a kink in our nice little plan, so it has now changed accordingly: thursday night, i shall employ the help of jonathan and derek in packing jenn's stuff and my stuff into a u-haul; friday morning jonathan, jenn, and myself shall go to austin to do all our apartment crap; saturday my parents and grandparents will meet us at the apartments with the truck; the truck will be returned to austin that night; and everyone will return to longview sunday (except for jenn and myself of course). so. layla's mom always stayed in a hostile when she visited, so hopefully i can find something about that online; otherwise, we three poor teens will have to pile up in the tiniest, cheapest roach motel known to existance. it's exciting, though, knowing that we're going to be alone in the city for that whole day to just goof around. i've always wanted someone from longview to play with in austin; i really do miss ryan, trent, derek (and obviously jonathan) a lot.
here's the other interesting twist to this weekend: i may have to smuggle two or three kittens into my apartment, past my family and the apartment people. remember tima and missa frodo? click here; it's in the second paragraph when i mention them. anyway, they disappeared a couple of weeks ago and then reappeared last week. i talked to jenn about them, and she asked, "well, it'd be ok to have three cats, huh?" (tima and missa frodo have a sister.) at least she won't mind having them, if i can salvage them before they die from natural causes or get murdered. :growls: last night i talked to jonathan's mother about holding them for me til i move, and she said she'd figure something out. i'm just planning on putting them into a box with some towels and hiding them in my room amongst other boxes. i told jonathan that if he just puts them in a box in his room, i'll come over everyday to feed them. :frets: :(
tonight i was being very paranoid about them, and i even almost started crying. i'm so afraid that they're going to die, and i'll be kitten-less. this particular emotion is mixed because 1) i don't want them to die, and 2) i want something, and i'm not getting it. anyway, derek and steven left at 1:30 a.m., and i stayed just lying in jonathan's floor staring at the ceiling. i kept talking about them dying and having horrific nightmares about their death, and for some reason he thought i was blaming it on him. i don't know. then he told me i should go home. let's list the things chelsea hates more than being told what to do:
oh yeah, there is nothing else she hates more than being told what to do. if only jonathan had listened at least once to when i've told him this. i asked him why, and he said he was tired, i have a curfew (which has been reduced to, "don't come home at 3:30 a.m."), and "it's 1:30 a.m." i made a mean face and stuck out my tongue at him. he kept telling me to go home, so finally i got up and said, "always kicking me out," while i fixed my hair. he walked me to my car, sans a word, only, "get home safe," as i was closing the door. i didn't even get a kiss or an "i love you." bah. thusly, i drove around crying to "calendar hung itself," "sunrise, sunset," and "a song to pass the time." during the last, i sobbed. i sobbed the first time i heard it, and there hasn't been one time that i've heard it and not cried. i just can't help it. plus it didn't help that i passed jonathan's house and saw his light on whilst listening to it. :sigh: i just wish he would cease being my father. i understand it's because he doesn't want me to get into trouble and then not be able to come over, but he refuses to listen to my very correct, "i will not get caught." even when i do get caught, i lie my way out of it. it's just frustrating, and...raarr. i don't know. i can't even tell you how much i love him; i just haven't learned how to take the bad with the good (or not be such a baby) with anyone i've ever known. i just need to grow up. =/
when i got home, i couldn't find snake in her cage. i panicked, but i couldn't find a hole in the cage. then, as i inspected the area around oobi, i saw a speck of fur underneath all the cedar chips. it was quite cute.
"all i have for the moment is a song to pass the time and a melody to keep me from worrying."
<3, pyx.
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