posted on May 14, 2002 @ 11:00 am
mest
hum ho, what's been going on. well, maybe jonathan won't break up with me? i dunno. to extract two quotes from our conversation, "i love you chelsea. there's no question about that," and, "i trust you and only you." he said i could ask him anything, that he'd answer, but i couldn't think of anything. :shrugs: just the fact that he offered made me feel great. i have serious trust issues, as illustrated in this entry.
Reine des Pixies (6:26:57 AM): is there anything you want to ask me? just in case for some strange reason i haven't touched on it already...a milllion times. ;P
Edhttk01 (6:27:28 AM): how do you feel about this relationship?
Reine des Pixies (6:27:57 AM): aw geez, and of course you bust out a hard question.
Edhttk01 (6:28:19 AM): you asked
thusly, i was forced to divulge all sorts of lame, cheesy feelings that, as embarrassing for me as they may be, are all true. at some point we started talking about how neither one of us has tape to decorate our boxes with, and i told him, "i'll just do it when i get home."
"i thought you were going to come over here when you got home? see you can't get tape. muwaha."
"i can just do it in the car."
he asked if i was going to call or just show up, but i think i'm just going to show up. it will be funner (yes, funner). if ryan's up to it still (he's who suggested this), we're going to go see star wars at midnite on thursday, stay at jonathan's, and then leave friday morning for some sci-fi convention in plano.
i can't believe i still haven't decorated his box, and i only have five pages of my deadly present done, out of 17. =/ i'll have to do that in the car, too. well, truck rather. i hate riding in the back of the truck for so long! grr. i stole a dolly about an hour ago. so what if i don't have to use it for another six hours? nana and mom will probably be here around one, and then i have to finish packing; they're bringing me extra boxes.
last night jenn and i stayed out til 5:30 a.m. we went to kerbey lane at 1:00 a.m., then to the metro. on the way we stopped at 7-eleven to get caffeine pills. we each bought a little pack entitled, "wake up now!" it had two caffeine pills, a vitamin b pill, and a ginseng pill. all that combined with my crazy pills made me feel like i was on crack. it felt like i could feel every molecule in my body moving, and i wanted to laugh for no reason. at the metro jennifer did latin, i cut out magazines. the smoke made me want to throw up (we sat upstairs). that's so odd how that's happening now. oh, when i went to jenn's at 7:30 p.m., i opened the door and she was listening to hank williams, jr., on CMT. =/ frightening. ;P i slept til 10:45 p.m., cut out magazines, then the above mentioned progressed.
i came home and continued to cut out magazines til 7:00 a.m., when i got into bed and talked to layla for half an hour. i slept til 8:30, when she left for her logics final (i asked her to wake me). oh no, i just realized my laundry's done. anyway, i haven't done anything since i've been up, except carry a basket full of sand outside for jenn. ;P she got it at the beach in port arthur, was going to bleach it and dye it different colors and put it in bottles (the ones with flavors like "rain" and "fire"), but the bleach didn't work. i'm about to dig for my scotch tape and piece together jonathan's box; i'll get mom to get me some box tape on the way out tomorrow morning and finish it then. okie doke, well, i'm taking up both washers, so i'd better go put them in the dryer before some impatient bitch (like :cough:me:cough) goes and dumps them out. ;P man, i've got heartburn's that kicking my ass. x_X
"i still have a day or two ahead of me till i'll be heading home, into your arms again. and the people here are asking after you. it doesn't make it easier to be away."
<3, chelsea.
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