posted on May 09, 2002 @ 4:38 am
"friday i'm in love," the cure
goes pyx as she swallows her pills. =/
i'm tired of hurting people and wallowing in my own self-pity. it's disgusting how selfish i am, so goddamn it i'm taking my medicine. it feels so good to cry and cry and feel like there's no hope for tomorrow, but i just end up hurting everyone else in the process.
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in linguistics we were talking about bilingual people and code-switching, changing languages in speech. it's often indicative of wanting to convey a sense of closeness, like you're being more intimate with them. i just realized when i'm upset or really want someone to know i'm being serious i speak in french.
exhibit one:
Reine des Pixies: please don't get hit by a bus
Edhttk01: why not?
Reine des Pixies: because i love you and i don't want you to go away
Reine des Pixies: ever ever ever ever ever ever
Reine des Pixies: ok?
Edhttk01: but but
Reine des Pixies: no buts
Edhttk01: its not like i could ask the bus to stop
Reine des Pixies: je ne m'inqui�te pas
Reine des Pixies: i don't care
Reine des Pixies: just don't let it happen because then i would be sad.
Edhttk01: you would get over me
Reine des Pixies: but i don't want to
i almost typed "je ne veux pas" instead of "i don't want to" (thought grammatically incorrect), but i'm sure it's really annoying for people who don't know french. i should tell everyone that's why i do it.
"chewing gum, wondering where i've been and what i've done. wondering where i'm going, where i'll run hide myself away from everyone. chewing gum, innocence lost in electric smiles. all i need is you by my side."
<3, chels.
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