posted on Friday, Jan. 19, 2007 @ 00:49
"inuyasha"
i didn't get that other job at the prc. i'm going to be trapped in my current soulless job forever. i've applied for over 100 jobs in the past few years, and pts are the only ones willing to hire me. i had an interview at jason's deli in longview the summer after my freshman year. i had to babysit sarah until mom got home at 3 or 4, and they needed someone more flexible. i had an interview a couple of years ago at a small porn shop on burnet road. i was already working wednesday through friday at the garages, and the woman needed someone more flexible. around that time i had an interview at border's, and they just didn't want me.
you'd think all this rejection at shitty jobs and my utter hatred for my current job would inspire me to do something productive with my life. on the contrary, i feel there's no point. if i can't even be chosen for a job that only needs a warm body, how am i supposed to get one that requires real qualifications? even if i had a degree in something, there will always be someone better with more experience and more charm.
this morning i became very upset with beverly (what else is new?) and started yelling at her over the phone. i hung up on her twice today. i hope her ignorant fat ass dies in a fire.
my luteal cycle has begun, but i don't have any lexapro. i'm going to have to debate whether i want to pay $40 for my happiness or just deal with crying for the next two weeks. last month i managed okay without my lexapro, but i was also on vacation. i only cried once when owen made me mad.
at least it's already the weekend.