posted on August 12, 2004 @ 4:59 pm
layla brought me a cool mirror from iran.
the sun carving is leather, and it opens backward because they're crazy people! not really. i also ate some weird candy with pistachios and discovered pistachios are really nasty. she showed me the product of her brazilian wax, and i am quite jealous. i may use my new credit card even though i said i wouldn't for the purpose of getting one. it's only $65 anyway. seriously, what is up with body hair?
this morning i went to valerie and dana's around 3:00, and there were some questionable photos taken involving dana's dildo.
i was instructed not to post them, so you'll need to request your individual prints. they are $6.95 a piece. make checks payable to mortifying moments photography. we ended up de-virginizing jordan and jared with regards to the megaplex. i'm just glad the guy working the night before wasn't there again last night, especially since i was wearing the same clothes. it was the first time i was sober around people intoxicated on multiple substances, and not completely annoyed. it's funny how it kinda rubs off on you, too.
you know, i am having an exciting august. last weekend mom came, this weekend mom and sarah are coming, and next weekend i am commandeering owen. according to my horroscope in layla's elle magazine, i will achieve a long-held goal this month. (:
several people have asked, "what if you just end up hating each other when owen gets here?" for whatever reason, he interprets this to mean that they don't like him. last night, after layla asked the same thing and i told her this, she replied with an answer that for some reason i hadn't realized. we're all fucked up people who have never known anyone who has had a functional, healthy relationship, much less had one ourselves. it's hard for any of us to imagine it actually working in any situation outside of a romantic comedy.
cole and i were sitting out on the balcony by ourselves talking about feelings and emotions and all that lame shit. he asked how it felt, with regards to owen and all. it's really weird. it's all i've ever wanted, since i was a little kid and dad ignored me, just to be appreciated, and now it's actually happening. i've had myself convinced for years that i was going to be the abandoned old lady rotting away with no one to care for her but her cats, who aren't well taken care of and don't really like me anyway since i can't feed them and don't clean up after them.
then he asked if i thought it was good to be friends first or to just meet a stranger and build a relationship with them. i had to explain, though, that i didn't consider him in that way for years because i wouldn't let myself. i mean, what's the point of being smitten over someone who's in pennsylvania? he asked when it changed, and i really have no idea. i read through old conversations from three years ago, and i'm talking about kidnapping him and we're telling each other we love the other. i've always known he was the most awesome person i'd ever met, but i guess when i had moved out and gotten my own life independent of my parents and realized i could go wherever and do whatever is when it changed. i really don't know; i'm just happy it did.
i'm not sure where all this came from because i hadn't planned on saying it. the boredom and thought provocation induced by work i suppose.
i'm so happy mom and sarah are coming tomorrow! they don't have to leave until monday, and i'm going to get my hair cut since i couldn't last week. it shall be glorious. and what is up with the weather? it is excellent. it's nearly 90, but the humidity is so low you can't even tell.
this is also the last sunday that owen will call. :grin: