posted on February 13, 2004 @ 7:01 pm
"how do," sneaker pimps
"beetle bum," blur
there are a lot of things i don't write in here. i don't even think i would let 99% of people know those things, either. not that any of it's bad, just embarrassing i suppose. like what i wish i could do while listening to this [sneaker pimps] song, or the things i think about every night as i try to fall asleep. as i sit here swallowing spoonfuls of cold ramen and feeling its chill propel through my chest, i'm feeling at a loss because i can't really say what's in my mind. i believe i'd even have a hard time writing down anything i wouldn't want other people to read. i did once at work, in third person, nine pages worth. ripped from its notebook, who knows where those pages are floating now. i surely don't, and i panic to think of it. it wasn't interesting or provocative, just me showing emotion.
of course i'm emotive on a daily basis, usually projecting anger and/or disdain. "hate hate hate!" right? i do have a lot of stored hostility, but that's such a fraction of what's churning inside.
anyway. to avoid tons of entries for today, i'll abruptly switch from that to the fact i stayed up until 10:30 a.m. this morning. i saw on martha stewart how to make valentines in a cool way, so i spent over three hours making four of them, for layla and her mom (who's visiting this weekend) and laura and bryan. [they're much more complicated than they look.] i was going to make more, but i suddenly realized it was nearly 7:00 a.m., and wanting to avoid horrific traffic i set out to make my deliveries.
i talked to mom all the way out to bryan's and up to layla's. all the lights were on in layla's, so i went inside to find her studying. i stayed there until nine-thirty (hence the early-morning entry), making a two o'clock appointment for the kitties, dropped her off on campus, and slept until one, when cat called to tell me of a story he has in mind.
tima and janeane got their exams and worm medicine for only $15 (i don't think she charged me for the exams). i like that place and the people, and it's close and cheap. i've found a jewel in south austin. ;)
i'm going to go home tonight when i get off. it sleeted this morning and snowed everywhere else in texas, so mom's worried. of course. i'm going to get sarah and go to nana and papaw's tomorrow so mom and doug can go out to eat or something. i was thinking of calling up dad when i'm in town. nana sent me a valentine box with that talking bear (playing a recording of her wishing me a happy valentine's day), $20, and tons o' candy. of course i say "tons" because it's supposed to be for jennifer and me, but i'm going to keep it all. muwahaha candy hog! mom also sent me some stuff, cute monkey socks, a picture of johnny depp from once upon a time in mexico (complete with a stick-it saying "yummy"), baby pictures she found of me (it's ridiculous how exactly the same i look), and a card from sarah. her handwriting is getting so good.
now i'm off to play with html. it's once again sparked my interest.
"she'll suck your thumb, she'll make you come, cause she's your gun."
<3, chels.
p.s. listen to this song. it's eggman's theme from the new sonic game, and it's by orgy. ahh they just got eight times cooler.
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