posted on January 03, 2004 @ 8:46 am
"never enough," cure
"bandages," hot hot heat
"my sweet prince," placebo
"miss michigan," mustard plug
"asleep," smiths
just an hour ago as i stepped out of the shower and surveyed my newly-dyed black hair with tiny highlights of red, "never enough" played through my head. [coincidentally, it was the first song on my radio. ;) ] ever since the first time i dyed my hair in the 8th grade, putting a red on top of my naturally dark hair and feeling disappointed when i didn't achieve [even remotely] the color on the box, i've been determined to have red hair. finally, within the past few months, my hair had reached perfection to me, and when i put the magenta on a few weeks ago i just wanted to make out with it i loved it so much. i saw two old pictures of me when i had black hair and brown streaks, however, and had to dye it back. nevermind it'll again take years to get it back to red if i try. it's so soft now, though, even while still wet. i just want to pet it all day.
the day after xmas toby and i stayed up until 2:30 a.m. playing halo, and the next night we stayed up until 3:00 a.m. we beat it, but it was just on normal (the difficulty levels go easy-normal-heroic-legendary). we played two games of just killing each other, and the first one he demolished me 50 to 31. the second, however, i put us in the smallest level and made us invisible, and i only lost (15 to 14) because i committed suicide like three times. every time you commit suicide, it takes away one of your kills. i'm notorious for committing suicide; i have an itchy grenade-trigger finger.
i also got hunter: the reckoning since it was only $20. i love when you have to kill the giant demon teddy bear that belly-flops and vomits on you. "that's right, don't take no shit from nobody's stuffed animal!" haha. i realized when i was talking with toby about the halo soundtrack that i also have the hunter soundtrack. that was strange i got the two games whose soundtracks i own.
me: "there's this guy i work with who smokes crack and hires hookers."
doug: "so how much does he pay you?"
i went with mom to super one (a grocery store) so i could take a picture of the whataburger with scripture on the marquee. whilst there i saw the illustrious derek. yay.
here are some more illustrations:
the day sarah and i went to the park
mom, sarah and i went shopping
before- and after-hours
on my drive back to austin, i literally thought i was going to die. it was pouring rain, and as 2003's total 19 inches of rain for austin will tell you, i don't drive in the rain. on the off chance it is raining, i just stay at home. even then, it's gone in like an hour, and it's never pouring. i managed to make it through the hour of rain somehow, a fucked up shaking mess, but alive nonetheless.
jennifer got me three dvds for xmas: dirty dancing, five episodes of "the steve harvey show," and one with three "bloodsucking vampire movies." yeaahh chelsea loves lame horror movies.
new year's was over all uneventful. jennifer and i went to sylvia's, where her parents were having a party. va, marjan, and chris (who they think looks like enrique iglesias, which he doesn't) came, too, and israel and sean showed up for a little bit. sylvia said she couldn't beat mario 1, so i became moderately intoxicated before beating it just to add insult to injury. we left up the screen showing i'd won for a long time, and when marjan came she expressed her jealousy because she can't beat it. what's up with people who can't beat mario 1? derek couldn't either. c'mon, guys, the night i challenged marc to a timed playing, i beat it in six minutes with 11 shots of vodka in me.
around 10:30 p.m. owen called me, and the toys r us people all left to go to our place. i was actually talking to owen when it turned midnite there, and i [and mom] think it's really rad to have spoken to someone living in a different year than myself. ;) at 11:56 we all were going to take a new year's shot, but after arguing over the fact it wasn't new year's yet i think we may have actually managed to take it around midnite. katherine, the biggest stoner ever, even made an appearance.
i didn't sleep the night before, so i slept from 4 a.m. to 8:30 p.m. on new year's day. the same people came over that night, but after marjan spilled beer on something i'd been putting together for owen something snapped. i stayed upstairs the rest of the night with the cats and mandarin mint cigarettes ("a touch of citrus flavor and a splash of menthol") sylvia gave me (she also got me the margarita mixer kind). i really think i need to be taking my paxil, but i'm going to try and control myself first.
sylvia, yelling: "oh my god i want to make out with these [mandarin mint cigarettes]!"
me: "thank god they go in our mouths. we can pretend like we are."
my motherfucking tooth is killing me. i only slept from 1:00 a.m. to 4:30 a.m. this morning because of the toothache and headache. that's why i was up dyeing my hair. it hurts so badly right now that i'm wriggling in my chair. there's nothing i can do about it; numbing stuff doesn't help, and i've been taking tylenols and ibuprofen for 24 hours. i can't even get dental insurance until august or september, so we'll see just how long i can go before committing suicide. you really have no idea the pain i'm going through.
oh yeah, i got a new phone on new year's eve. wee. it's so pretty and the screen's colored, and i named it yoshimi jr. (after my old phone). how i'm going to pay the bill, that will be interesting. i've got to get another job before february that's for sure.
now i must go and get pictures on here and try to avert suicide. or at least pulling that goddamned tooth. i don't even know why the garages are open today; this is so lame. i wager i will make $0 today. let's see what happens.
"the only king i answer to is elvis, and i don't see you wearing blue suede shoes."
<3, chels.
owen sent me joey's starter deck! yay for yu-gi-oh cards!
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