posted on October 29, 2003 @ 6:24 pm
"here comes your man," pixies
"pure morning," placebo
"that joke isn't funny anymore," smiths
"point shirely," rhett miller
"in love this way," descendents
"such great heights," postal service
well, oobi's funeral was this morning. i wrapped her box in foil last night just in case she started to smell and put her on the shelf in the hall closet. jennifer and i went to wal-mart and kerbey lane last night because she was super hungry. i bought another four movie dvd of horror movies, this time boris karloff. i'm determined to own all of these amc classic dvds now, especially since they're only $5.88.
this morning at 10:00 she woke me up, and at 10:30 we left for mt. bonnell. we ascended very slowly because we're super unfit, and i smoke. it's rarely that much, you know, but i think it still affects me since i have breathing problems anyway. i used to have an inhaler, but i lost it soon after i got it. i found a nice place beneath a baby tree, dug around the root and opened her box. when i saw her, she was so pretty and peaceful, with her paws curled and seemingly asleep. i started crying as i figured i would, but it was a silent cry where the tears smoothly run and you just sniffle some. i took a picture of her and and the view. she was wrapped in paper towel, and there was a little blood spot on it.
i pet her some, told jennifer you could still see her scar from when janeane tried to eat her when i ran my finger over said scar, and placed her on her back into the little hole i'd dug. i covered her with dirt and leaves while thinking, take care of her, Mom. Earth. Mother Earth? sorry, i'm upset. then i thought to oobi, return home, little one. i couldn't actually say it because i would have started crying more. i found a large stone to put at her head, then jennifer and i got some handfuls and covered the rest. i picked some pretty yellow flowers and stuck them into the ground above her head. i also took a picture of her grave and of her immediate view down the slope.
we walked around the edges for a while and then went to the other side. we both said, "bye, oobi." i took like 20 pictures all together i think. it was such a beautiful day i barely even broke a sweat climbing and digging, and the wind was blowing. we sat on a ledge for about half an hour watching people and cars by the river and talked about the physics going on inside the sun (she's taking astronomy) and contemplated what would happen when it died and how long everything would take. it really helped to make me feel better, sitting 775 feet above everyone else with the only sounds around us being that of the wind and an occasional bird (a large bird of prey got pretty near us as it glided; it looked like a falcon). she decided to skip her classes, and after searching all the trash on the slope past the fence, looking for a condom (she: "first one to find a condom doesn't have to pay for lunch.") we left. we drove down balcones looking at all the houses we'll never be able to afford even to look inside of and gawked at the number of new, expensive cars at a local park. "and then i roll up in travis and they're like, 'dear god! what is that?'"
we went to kerbey lane (yeah and a random picture of crows) for the second time within 12 hours. heh. i now owe her $6 and will have to borrow around $20 for rent. rawr. i get paid next week, though.
after that, she made me go mail my letter to derek. i took a nap for 1.5 hours, and now i'm in a great mood. i've been sad and crying and listening to only the postal service for the past three days; i'm glad to have oobi's passing behind me now. i've still got to clean her cage. it's saddening to see it still set up with food and water yet no oobi. ;(
"true, it may seem like a stretch, but it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away when i am missing you to death."
<3, chels.
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